Sometimes I am a mess, trapped within my own distress,
Too tangled up to express myself,
In such times, my love, I want you there,
To untangle me with your tender care.
While others may read my lips,
You should read my eyes.
Understand when I hold back my tears,
And put on a brave disguise.
For I am a puzzle, complex and unique,
And my smiles can often deceive.
But I want you to know my soul – the real me,
To see the depths beneath the surface I conceal.
Please recognize when I am feeling nervous
Or simply hiding my tears.
I have a fear of attachment,
Of holding on too tight,
For I know how it feels to cling to ashes,
And watch them fade out of sight.
But with you, my love, I want to feel secure,
And I know I won’t regret holding onto you.
Sometimes I am suffocated,
Weighed down by my own fears,
And my mind races with worry,
All through the night and into the years.
I am strong, but even if I don’t ask, at times I need help,
And in those moments, I want you to read my mind,
Before fear, madness, and anger take over,
And I lose sight of what I’m trying to find.
I hope you see through the mask I wear,
The one I use to dodge the world,
And know that I keep my weaknesses well-hidden,
Only showcasing my strengths.
I want you to know it’s not to deceive,
But to save my soul, to protect and preserve.
I have a fear of betrayal,
A fear that’s deep and true,
For I’ve been let down by loved ones before,
And I’m afraid it might also happen with you.
In your arms, I want to feel safe and secure,
And I know you’ll never change with the weather,
So please assure me, my love,
That our bond will remain unbreakable, forever.
Sometimes I am so scared,
That I cannot even move,
I hate the darkness all around me,
But at times, I even fear the lighted rooms.
I am strong, I know, and I can fight my own battles,
But when I’m falling apart and I push you away,
That’s when I need you to pull me even closer,
And remind me of the light that shines in my heart.
I have a fear of containment,
Of being trapped and locked away,
For like a bird that flies up high,
I need my freedom to spread my wings and sway,
But I want you to remind me that with you, my dreams are safe,
And I can trust you with my heart and soul,
So please reassure me, my love,
That my freedom will always be mine to control.
In your arms, I want to find my solace,
And in your love, I want to find my home.
I want you to be the light in my darkness,
And the strength in my bones.
Like a kaleidoscope, I am a myriad of hues,
A mosaic of joys, sorrows, and muses.
For while sometimes I’m lost in distress,
At others, I am a girl so wild and free.
I’m the one who dances on tables,
Singing with abandon and such glee,
Who mimics creatures to make you smile,
Nuzzling your face like a lioness, carefree.
I speak of science and history,
Of music, theology, and all things mystery,
I’ll laugh when you don’t know constellations,
I’ll show them to you with great jubilation.
My wit is sharp, my references clever,
My stories lasting and memories forever,
Like the time I crafted Santa from cardboard,
Or when I built a sandcastle fit for a lord.
I see the beauty in flaws and imperfections,
And remind you of your worth and essence,
That your humanity is the most precious thing,
And the source of your inner radiance.
I’m not one for being quiet or sweet,
I’m a rainbow of colors that’s hard to beat.
A blend of laughter and tears,
Bound by love that conquers fears.
In the symphony of our hearts’ embrace,
We will find perfection in our shared grace.
If you can’t love all of my hues,
Then our love will be hard to continue.
But if I am your rainbow, my love,
I’ll show you how each color shines above.
I’ll be your mess, and you’ll be mine,
It will be a perfect deal to sign.
– Maroof
I’m big fan of your writings β€
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This means a lot. Thank you β€
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Most welcome β€
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Loved the picture, the thoughts and the beautiful poem β€οΈ
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Aww this means a lot.Thank you so much β€
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My pleasure always
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This is gorgeous
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Thank you β€
Means a lot
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Very beautiful n nice flow of write, lovely blog like a wonderful poem…loved itβ€οΈ
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I’m glad you liked it. β€
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My pleasure always dear π»πΊ
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I read it in a Victorian tone, and it cheered a heart of mine. Now thy shall peacefully lay my head to rest ππ love it
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hahaha I’m glad you liked it. π
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Wow! Loved it . You have expressed emotions so beautifully esp last two ending lines π
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I’m glad you liked it. Means a lot β€
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My pleasure
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Wow. Just… so incredible. I really like this.
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Thank you so much β€
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You are a mirror. Every man of substance says he wants a ferocious woman, but few can handle the reality. For most men, the learning curve in such a relationship is steep and turns them into little boys.
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Yeaahh exatly.
Couldn’t agree more π
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This probably misses the point of your piece, but I love the idea of a gingerbread lighthouse, as mentioned in the poem. I’m seriously thinking of making one.
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hahaha sure sure go ahead… You’ll enjoy making one ππ
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Through the lit prism
of such a glorious poem
who would not want to sign
on that dotted line?
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haha awww thats so sweet of you. π
Thank you so much β€
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Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
GREAT POEM! BRAVO!
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Thank you so much for your kind words. Means a lot to me π β€
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Figured you needed to be blessed.
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Aww that’s so sweet of you β€ β€ β€
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β€ That's what I'm here for! π (as some would say….doing the works of God!)
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Enjoyed it, you’re such a gifted writer. I’m jealousπππ.
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hahahaha aww thank you so much for the compliment. β€ π
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Your poem speaks to me, as I know moods like that from a woman I loved.
Keep up your inspiring poems.
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I am glad you can relate to this poem. Thank you so much for taking your time to read and comment.
Means a lot to me.
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Maroof… You left me wandering… Your vibes are high.. and I love that β€
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Your compliment have greatly elevated my spirits. Thank you for your kind comment. π
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I just don’t know.. But out of blue I clicked on a link on a blogger site.. Nd there I saw your picture.. I just don’t know but something.. brought me to your site.. maybe what you wrote on your gravitar site.
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This is fabulous. A perfect description of vulnerability of love.
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Thank you so much β€
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Right to the heart. Nice. π
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I’m glad that you liked it β€
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Wonderfully poignant, I loved the pic!
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Thank you so much β€
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Thanks for reblogging β€
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It’s like my own heart’s voice
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I’m glad that you liked it. β€
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So lovely and honest. That’s a gift, that kind of candor. Thank you so much for the follow. I look forward to seeing you around the blogs. π
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Aww you comment means a lot. Thank you dear β€
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Your work confuses me, but I can see your niche within the framework of poetry.
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Is this a compliment or what? π
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It’s a personal observation, and of course a compliment to a fellow wordsmith poetry is not a game to me but away of expressing my innerself.
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Means a lot.
Thanks β€
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Straight from the heart. I really loved it
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Thank you!
Iβm glad that you liked it β€
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