Sometimes I am a mess,
Too complicated to express,
Unable to decompress,
At such times my love! I want you there,
To untangle myself.
Everyone can read the lips,
I want you to read my eyes.
See when I am holding back my tears,
And trying to stay strong.
I want you to understand that I’m a puzzle,
And to differentiate my smiles.
So, that when everyone is fooled,
You won’t be among them.
I have a fear of attachment,
A fear powerful and true.
For holding on tightly to ashes,
Is something I would do?
At such times my love! I want you to remind me,
I won’t regret holding onto you.
Sometimes I’m too suffocated,
That it gets hard for me to breathe.
Thinking about all my mind holds dear,
Stressing all night long.
I am a tough individual,
I know how to handle things on my own.
But I want you to read my thoughts,
When I can’t express myself.
Before anger, fear, madness consumes me,
Remind me who I am.
I want you to see through the mask I put on,
A mask to dodge the world,
When everything goes wrong.
I keep my weaknesses well hidden,
And my strengths are all I ever show,
I want you to realize that I do this to save my soul.
I have a fear of betrayal,
A fear so genuine and strong.
My loved ones always shatter my trust,
You are different how would I confirm?
At such times my love! I want you to make me believe,
Your love for me will not change with changing weather.
Sometimes I am so scared,
It gets hard for me to move.
I hate darkness all over,
But at times I fear the lighted rooms.
I am courageous and brave enough.
I can fight my battles alone.
Asking for help – I dislike,
It makes me feel less strong.
When I push you further away,
And you see me about to reach the bottom,
Pull me even closer then before.
Give me your hand, rescue me before I’m lost.
Show me my light,
Pull me out of the dark.
I have a fear of containment,
A fear that won’t go.
Caging a bird that flies up high?
Killing it – is all that would do.
At such times my love! I want you to assure me,
My freedom will never be taken away by you.
In contrast to this,
There is another side to me.
I am the girl who will stand on a table,
And sing at the top of my lungs on the highway.
And act like a chicken or quail or velociraptor,
Or nuzzle your face like a lion to make a point.
I am the girl who will talk about science,
And music and theology and history.
And point out constellations, laughing,
When you don’t know the big dipper’s name.
I am the girl who will make witty references,
To classic literature and science fiction.
And will tell you stories of how I once,
Made a gingerbread replica of a lighthouse.
I am the girl who will point out your flaws,
And take you outside to see the stars.
And remind you how human you are,
And what a wonderful thing that is to be.
I am not good at being quiet,
Because that’s not who I am.
I am not the sweet girl,
Who will leave you with a smile,
And a touch,
And a glance,
Or a single word.
There is nothing of this fashion of romance,
About me.
And if you can’t love all of my colors, honey,
How would we last long?
But if I am your rainbow,
I’ll show you how beautiful all these colors can be.
I’ll be your mess, you be mine,
That would be a perfect deal to sign.
-By Maroof
I’m big fan of your writings ❤
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This means a lot. Thank you ❤
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Most welcome ❤
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🙂
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Loved the picture, the thoughts and the beautiful poem ❤️
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Aww this means a lot.Thank you so much ❤
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My pleasure always
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This is gorgeous
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Thank you ❤
Means a lot
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😊
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Very beautiful n nice flow of write, lovely blog like a wonderful poem…loved it❤️
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I’m glad you liked it. ❤
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My pleasure always dear 🌻🌺
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I read it in a Victorian tone, and it cheered a heart of mine. Now thy shall peacefully lay my head to rest 😆😆 love it
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hahaha I’m glad you liked it. 😄
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Wow! Loved it . You have expressed emotions so beautifully esp last two ending lines 👌
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I’m glad you liked it. Means a lot ❤
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My pleasure
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Wow. Just… so incredible. I really like this.
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Thank you so much ❤
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You are a mirror. Every man of substance says he wants a ferocious woman, but few can handle the reality. For most men, the learning curve in such a relationship is steep and turns them into little boys.
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Yeaahh exatly.
Couldn’t agree more 😊
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This probably misses the point of your piece, but I love the idea of a gingerbread lighthouse, as mentioned in the poem. I’m seriously thinking of making one.
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hahaha sure sure go ahead… You’ll enjoy making one 😋😅
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Through the lit prism
of such a glorious poem
who would not want to sign
on that dotted line?
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haha awww thats so sweet of you. 😊
Thank you so much ❤
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Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
GREAT POEM! BRAVO!
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Thank you so much for your kind words. Means a lot to me 🙂 ❤
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Figured you needed to be blessed.
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Aww that’s so sweet of you ❤ ❤ ❤
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❤ That's what I'm here for! 😀 (as some would say….doing the works of God!)
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❤
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Enjoyed it, you’re such a gifted writer. I’m jealous😑😂😂.
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hahahaha aww thank you so much for the compliment. ❤ 🙂
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Your poem speaks to me, as I know moods like that from a woman I loved.
Keep up your inspiring poems.
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I am glad you can relate to this poem. Thank you so much for taking your time to read and comment.
Means a lot to me.
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Maroof… You left me wandering… Your vibes are high.. and I love that ❤
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Your compliment have greatly elevated my spirits. Thank you for your kind comment. 🙂
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I just don’t know.. But out of blue I clicked on a link on a blogger site.. Nd there I saw your picture.. I just don’t know but something.. brought me to your site.. maybe what you wrote on your gravitar site.
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This is fabulous. A perfect description of vulnerability of love.
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Thank you so much ❤
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Right to the heart. Nice. 🙂
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I’m glad that you liked it ❤
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Wonderfully poignant, I loved the pic!
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Thank you so much ❤
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Thanks for reblogging ❤
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It’s like my own heart’s voice
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I’m glad that you liked it. ❤
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So lovely and honest. That’s a gift, that kind of candor. Thank you so much for the follow. I look forward to seeing you around the blogs. 🙂
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Aww you comment means a lot. Thank you dear ❤
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Your work confuses me, but I can see your niche within the framework of poetry.
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Is this a compliment or what? 🙂
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It’s a personal observation, and of course a compliment to a fellow wordsmith poetry is not a game to me but away of expressing my innerself.
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Means a lot.
Thanks ❤
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Straight from the heart. I really loved it
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Thank you!
I’m glad that you liked it ❤
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